I swear

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A seed was sowed
Watered daliy
But the fruits that came
Weren't what they may be

You have to curse me
For every single mistake by me
You blame me for my failure
I know..I didn't give you
The gems that pleased you
But I swear I tried
With all my might..

I didn't top my exam
Didn't win the awards
That other kids bragged
Didn't be on the zenith of Everest
Just got stranded between the rocks of trouble
But.. I swear I tried
With all my might.

I know..I couldn't be that
perfect girl that you thought
Me to be when I was born
The picture was not the masterpiece of museum
Instead decorated the walls of a lonely hut
But..I swear I tried
With all my might

I tried my best
To fullfil your dreams
Even if it had cost my screams
I couldn't swim that ocean
Let me lie on shore
I do love you to the core
But now all this
Has tore me

Even if I had to cry
I did try
I swear I tried
With all my might
Don't call me a plight
I swear I tried.

Chanchal Bagla

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