Days

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One day
I will get over it
One day
I will not cry myself to sleep
One day
I will wake up smiling
One day
I will love myself
One day
Those things won't matter
Everyday
I wish for that day
Everyday
I struggle to make it true
Everyday
I fail myself, trying
Today
I know, I won't stop
Today
I will not cry
Today
I will not smile
Today
I will just accept
The things I have done
And
What I have become.

-Chanchal Bagla

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