Kagazon ki cheekh (part 1)

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Humari kahaani
Do taraf ki khaamoshi
Kuch khali panne
Jinmein chuppi thi baatein ankahi
Kabhi dukh hota hai
Toh tera hasta chehra Yaad kar leti hoon
Aur muskurahat khud aa jaati hai

Aisa lagta hai
Jaise pehle ka naata hai tumse
Tum haste ho
Toh mai muskurati hoon
Tum rote ho toh
Mai subakti hoon
Tumhare bina beeta har lamha
Tumhari yaad dilata hai
Tumhari tasveer se kyu
Aajkal mai baatein karti hoon?
Raat ki sone se pehle kyu tumhein Yaad karti hoon
Tum paas hote ho
Toh kyu anjaan banti hoon.

Tum sachmein
Woh paidaan ho
Joh khushiyon ki oor jaata hai
Aur mei Woh dhool
Joh tumein
Sama jaati hoon.

Dil ko naye zakhm dene pade
Puranon ka dard chupane ke liye.
Aur yeh silsila dauhrata gya

Jab mohabbat se vishwaas uth hi chuka tha
Jab gulaab ka phool mehakana chorh chuka tha
Woh meri dehleez par apni kacheri ki arzi le aaya
mohabbat aur gulaabon mein umang le aaya
Rakhwala hai woh meri muskurahat ka
Aur daasi hai meri muskurahat uski chahat ki.

Mai shayad woh Nahi hoon jisse tu dhoondh raha hai
Par tu wahi tha jiski mujhe talaash thi
Mai raaste par pahunchkar bhi gumrah ho gai.

Tujhse baat karte waqt ke woh lamhe
Poore din mere kaam aate hain

Tere pyaar ki zaroorat thi
Teri wafa ki talaash thi
Par na tujhe fursat thi
Aur na hi kadar
Tu ab yeh bekhabar dil
Woh galliyan chorh gya.

Uljhe hue dhaagon se bana humara rishta
gaath ban mazboot ho gaya
Sikude hue kaagazon par likhi humari kahaani
Library ki anchui kitaab mein kaid ho gayi.

Yeh pagalpan tha mera
ya tha mera junoon
Na dekhoon tujhe toh
Dil na paata sukoon
Bata de mujhe kis siyaahi se likhoon tera naam
Ki lakeerin bhi chahein toh mita na paayein tujhe.

The beams of my sun
The water of my rains
All lies lost in some unknown island
Has anyone seen it?

Teri yeh khaamoshi
Bahut gustakh si hai
Chup rehkar joh kehde
Woh baat si hai.

Tum na jaana mujhe chorh
Yeh fariyaad karta tha
Banjaara hote hue bhi
Tumhein therne ko kehta tha.
Tum ho toh yeh muskuraahat hai
Tum ho dil salaamat hai
Sunne ko joh mai tarsoon
Woh geet teri aawaaz sa hai
Bikharne par joh mai simtoon
Woh dher teri mohabbat sa hai.
Tumhaara saath woh
Khooburat ehsaas
Tumhaari yaad
Bin chaand ki raat
Tumhara alvida
Woh dhalti shaam
Tumhare lafz
Aur meri zubaan
Kaash
Yeh sab khwaab ki jagah
Ek haqiqat hota
Kahaaniyon mein joh jhalke

Chashma pehn ke socha
Sab saaf dikh raha hai
Uske aansu dekh
sab dhudhla ho gaya

Yeh kadam yun joh chal rahe hain
yeh shaam Yun joh dhal rahi hai
Hum roz apna astitva kho rahe hain
Aur har subah
Ek nayi pehchaan banane nikal chalte hain

Kagaz par likhoon, ki woh jala diye jaayein
Ret mein likhoon, ki woh mita diye jaayein
Pathar par likhoon, ki woh bhula diye jaayein
Maine kisi ki yaadon mein
Apni kahaani lekhneka socha hai..

Bijli ke taaron par baithe pakshi
Aksar sabko dekhte hain
roz unhii logon ko
Unhi raaston se guzarte dekhte hain
Unhi logon ko
Apni zindagi se shikayat karte paate hain
jinhone khud use yeh sirha dikhaya hai..

Ek nishaan reh gaya
Kagaz ke us tukde par
Ek daag reh gaya
Us mehboob ke chunar par
Ek kaanta chubh gaya
shayar ke us zakham par.

-Chanchal Bagla

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